Springtime Showers

Usually at this time of year, the rain makes me very happy; being able to watch the rain from inside a lovely warm spot, and knowing that after the rain comes all sorts of lovely flowers makes me happy and all wishy washy. Unfortunately I've become wishy washy this season in the wrong sort of wishy washy.

Coming up will be a full year since graduating and I can barely say I accomplished anything this year. As strenuous and hard-working as it is, nobody really wants to say that they hold down 2 or 3 jobs depending on the season. I'm only glad to say I have 2 jobs to balance out the fact that I have a job that involves what I went to school for and doesn't involve Value Village. But it's so sad.

I'm sure most graduated undergrads can agree with me that most of you work jobs that have nothing to do with what they went to school for - or if you do, it's a little contract position, or part-time position that will never get you going with real-life outside of your parent's house. I pretty much live that life.

Lately I've been offered a wonderful opportunity to do something that I had been hoping I'd get the chance to do but didn't think I'd even be considered a candidate. Now I have, and now that I've got it I have to make a couple big decisions. Especially because it's very hard to go to a job day in and day out and work 6-7 hour shifts while resisting the urge to constantly yell "I QUIT!" in someone's face.

And while my mother seems to secretly hope I'll be able to balance 3 jobs over the summer to bring in extra money, I don't think my brain or body could handle it. Considering I am already on the verge of mental combustion and already on physical derailment, I just don't care about the money anymore. It actually makes it really hard for me to care SO much about earning SO much money right now because most of my life goals slightly depend on someone who has yet to graduate school himself. So I've got a couple more years.

It's just...I don't want to break myself because of a place like where I am right now. It's not worth the minimum wage.